Phantom Victory

After having being in the United Sates for 17 years I suddenly realized I have not achieved anything. All of the superficial successes I have achieved bought no fruitful result in which me or my loved ones could benefit from. I saw someone driving a really nice Mercedes Benz S class and I thought to myself I want to have a car like that too, so a few years later I bought a Lexus LS 430. I graduated from Berkeley but with a 2.95 gpa.  I worked for General Electrics and did real estate for 3 years, but I was not able to make much money or save any money from it. Actually result is the opposite, I am almost one hundred thousand in credit card debt now. 

A few months ago I attended PSI basic and there is where I came to this realization. I knew that it was a result of me taking short cuts and doing the absoluteminimumal possible to reach the most easily reachable goals and that is exactly what I managed to do. In actual practice it looks like this, I was just after the the superficial appearance.  Let us say I wanted to get into a top ranking school. I worked hard enough to get accepted, but once in there I was not working as hard as I was before because my commitment and intention is only to get into a top ranked school and graduate. I was able to fulfill this commitment and intention, but that is it. nothing more. So the result I got is a diploma that sounded good but with a poor GPA. As such I did not get much out of it because my intention was just to do the absolute minimum and reach the absolute easiest goal in the shortest amount of time. In the process of achieving this goal I made a lot of short cuts. 

Today at my first class of Introduction Leadership Class I finally figured out why I kept taking short cuts. It is because I made short cut in my integrity.  My integrity is not 100% integrity. It is an integrity with the least effort and reachable in the shortest possible time. When I was asked to committed to 100% integrity i found myself resisting it because it looked like a lot of work down the road, but it suddenly dawned on me that if I committed to 100% integrity then I would be able to get true results, results that me and my loved ones could enjoy the benefit of my victories from. So, I have decided and i am committed to 100% integrity in every part of my life. Hence my life may actually start to work and that me and my loved ones could enjoy the finer things in life and most importantly at all others would be transformed too because I am committed to 100% integrity.